it should have went down this way

Sunday, July 11, 2004

you dont know.

thats me -> [\*/]/

your going down,
down, for the world to see
7/11/2004 11:10:00 PM

but i do.

you dont know.

hello.

i dont know whats wrong with my computer. it disallows me to view some pop up windows. on friendster and mediacorp. haha! well went shopping. i bought a new pair of badminton shoes. its ULTRA ULTRA comfortable. i think i am in love with it. and ytd. went to the youth park. the sales. was quite. -_- violet kept playing games at this stall. urghh. bycraniumquadreplets. sheesh. whats that? gehui did braiding for me. i had a tail. for a few hours. and my sister pulled it off. HAHA! the westwood fun fair was quite ok. saw some of our school people there. haha! did i mention i bought a softball. its nice. =)))))))

your going down,
down, for the world to see
7/11/2004 09:59:00 PM

but i do.

Thursday, July 08, 2004

you dont know.

my legs are aching like fuck. they were soaking in muddy water like fuck and it fucking felt good. it was fucking raining and i was fucking drenched in sweat and rain water. i was fucking tired. i am NOW fucking pissed cos that fucking show didnt show THE BEAUTIFUL FELCIA CHIN grrrrrrr.

I WANT PCSS!!

your going down,
down, for the world to see
7/08/2004 10:07:00 PM

but i do.

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

you dont know.

your a different person. i am a different person. we are both different individuals. i want us to be one. its so hard. when we just cant seem to coincide with one another, as a day goes by, you dont know how much more i am losing. as the day goes by, you dont know how much i lost. ignorant as ever. we are who we are. to be one, is hard. but, i didnt say i wouldnt try. if i tried, would you ever. we have different personalities. you are logical and i am not. you've got the gift, but i dont. nobody said it wasnt going to be this hard. but, girl. for you i'll try.

your going down,
down, for the world to see
7/07/2004 08:19:00 PM

but i do.

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

you dont know.

hi.

your going down,
down, for the world to see
7/06/2004 09:06:00 PM

but i do.

Monday, July 05, 2004

you dont know.

today, i was fucking blue. i mean like. i was kinda sat. after i had tuition, i watched tv. kinda cried a little. usd the computer cried a lil bit more. i mean, i am kinda lonely at home and the fact that. i dont know how i feel.i really miss **Her and maria was kinda insensitive. i mean, what she said really hurt my feelings. over **Her. although we never started. i feel so much for her. i probably would have died if i didnt tell her.

butbutBUTTT. badminton training really helped. lee came late. and when cheryl was playing a doubles. me and charlene kept talking to her, SHE COULDNT CONCENTRATE. TOO BAD! haha! and he kept whacking ants with my HUMongous slippers. haha! but badminton really reminds me about **Her, how i missed those days.

your going down,
down, for the world to see
7/05/2004 11:07:00 PM

but i do.

you dont know.

stupid gwennie is trying to put jabi's photo up on blogger. but stupid blogger doesnt want to take jabi.

yeahh rightt. acting all childish and stuff.i feeel ultra moronic. i mean like after why i told *her. its really hard for me to face *her. i feel like i've let *her down or something. i feel like some fucking moron. i bet *she thinks i am a fucking moron too. i dont know. and maria's great idea is to stead her. THATS THE WORST THING TO DO.. URGHHH.

your going down,
down, for the world to see
7/05/2004 12:00:00 AM

but i do.

Thursday, July 01, 2004

you dont know.

hey..

haha! softball really suckeedd. was ultra dry. well this team is really more of a me then we. i jsut dont get it. anyway did i tell you felicia chin rocks. likee yeahh haha! i am her fann. set up a fan club of hers or somethingg. wheeeeeee~

CHECK THIS OUT!!

Once a groupie, now she has her own 'following'

By Chang May Choon reporting from Taipei

MONTHS ago, Felicia Chin was just a groupie who screamed her lungs out for Jay Chou during his concert and followed F4's Meteor Garden religiously.

But now, she's slowly finding herself in the limelight.

The bubbly 19-year-old has garnered a sizeable following, after making history as the first Singaporean to win Star Search since the biennial talent search went regional six years ago.

Now she's setting aside her studies for a shot at stardom. Earlier this year, Felicia scored three As for her 'A' levels and was offered a place at the National University of Singapore.

The former Victoria Junior College Student (VJC) convinced her mother to let her give acting a shot. Since winning the talent search, Felicia said curious passers-by now ogle and point fingers at this Zoe Tay-to-be.

'But I don't care, as long as they're not shouting in my face,' said Felicia, also crowned Miss Vitality for her cheerfulness and sunshine smile.

'I don't feel very self-conscious. Usually it's my friends who will notice (people staring).'

On Tuesday, she created a small buzz at The Esplanade bay when posing for photos for The New Paper.

We caught five guys in chef's uniform ogling her. One cheekily said: 'Sui (Hokkien for pretty) hor?', while another screamed her Chinese name 'Chen Feng Ling'.

Another group of guys applauded when she leapt into the air.

'Very nice!' they bellowed, earning a wave and a sunny smile from Felicia in return.

But she's still a long way from becoming an A-lister, and so other than the occasional stares, nothing much has changed for her.

Home is a four-room HDB flat in Bedok, shared with her kindergarten teacher mum and primary school teacher sister. Her father died of cancer two years ago.

She still frequents Siglap, Parkway Parade, Orchard Road and the Esplanade with the same buddies from VJC and Tanjong Katong Girls' School.

But Felicia admitted that she did have had a little fight with her best friend and VJC classmate, Miss Jean Loo.

She recalled: 'She got upset because I was so busy I didn't reply to her SMS. She thought I didn't need her anymore. But we've talked things out and I've learnt that it takes effort to keep friends around you.'

Since winning Star Search, Felicia has been swarmed by congratulatory SMS messages from long-lost friends.

'I don't know how they got my number. Maybe through my friends?' she said, looking baffled.

Total strangers are also keen to chat her up and and a dim-sum restaurant manager even thanked her for her patronage.

Fortunately, there haven't been any stalkers, she said, unlike fellow Star Search male finalist Huang Shiyu, whom Felicia said was trailed by a secondary school boy once!

All Felicia has met are autograph hunters. Two groups of fans even collated newspaper clippings about her into a file as a present for her.

'My friends were teasing me, saying, 'Who wants your signature? So ugly!'' she added, laughingly.

Felicia, who had her first serious relationship at 16 but is now single, went on to clinch the prom queen title with majority votes.

All eyes were also on her when she took a holiday job as an animal show presenter at the zoo and night safari several months ago, while waiting for her A-level results.

The animal lover said she had to feed the dogs, otters, owls and snakes as well as clean their dens.

'It's fun and challenging. It's also hectic because you need physical strength to pull branches and all.'

This svelte lass used to pitch for her school softball team. (above right).

The straight As student has even represented Singapore twice in regional competitions held in China and India about four years ago.

She used to train every day after school - going to the gym four times a week for jogging and weight lifting, and pitching the ball 300-400 times during every practice, she said.

'It's so much fun! I miss those days!' said Felicia.

Now that she has chosen acting as a career, she has to settle for giving pep talks to her juniors and receiving service awards from her alma mater.

'I'm still at the bottom of the ladder. I want to try everything - be it acting, hosting or singing.'

Given her newfound fame, is there anything she can't do now?

Felicia pondered and said: 'Last Saturday I was at Elva Hsiao's concert, standing on my chair and screaming and waving. But I guess I can't do that next time, because all the VIPs only sit and clap...'

Still a groupie at heart, isn't she?

your going down,
down, for the world to see
7/01/2004 11:06:00 PM

but i do.