it should have went down this way

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

you dont know.

maria wants me to update. i am happy. yess happy. had softball. got my racquet already. =)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
yeahh. had some black out last night. it was like. i switched on my room light, then there was a piak sound then the lights went off then my dad scolded me, then my sister was like, DAD! THE WHOLE ESTATE BLACK OUT. then i was like. is it my fault? yeahh....

HAHA!

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/30/2004 08:08:00 PM

but i do.

Thursday, June 24, 2004

you dont know.

i have nothing to update. everyone is just sad. and snow dogs rock. joanna who acts as barb rocks.

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/24/2004 12:58:00 AM

but i do.

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

you dont know.

she passed on. we hoped she could make it to july. but she passed on this morning. like 5.30? or something like that. everyone is quite sad for her. she's gone to a better place. already.
grandma. i love you.

yeahh went for cheers. i think i liked it. i think i like*. haha! sweet. hmmm took many photos. uploading it la.. haha! did i tell you sharmaine oh rui wen has the same shorts as me?! EEEEKS! sheesh. her's is in a better condition than mine. -_-"
you people can see it soon. well. i love cheers. tomorrow tania is playing. i dont think i can go. BUT I WANT TO!! sheesh. elaine's birthday. urgghh. yeahh..

maria.: thanks. you dont how much you are to me.=)) i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE you.. =))

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/22/2004 12:14:00 AM

but i do.

Sunday, June 20, 2004

you dont know.

hello.

my mum is a pain in the arse. in the back in the wherever. sheesh. her comments are really nasty. -_-" anyway today we are having the cheers thing. so excited. even though its not me who is playing. sheesh i am happy for pearleen. she's playing some siti mastura. yeahh. go pearleen. i'll try my best to go and support you babyyyy. =)))

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/20/2004 12:47:00 AM

but i do.

Friday, June 18, 2004

you dont know.

hello.
went for training. bought a new racquet AGAIN. had steamboat. then had to go to the hospital. my grandma was doing too well. she got some lung infection or cancer or something. she was in bad condition. it was really bad.i feel sad for her. seeing her in the this state is quite sad. my dad says, anytime soon. and that is really depressing. but i cant say much. she's old already. and... well. its pitiful but i cant do a thing. no one can. just hope she can make it to july.

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/18/2004 09:53:00 PM

but i do.

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

you dont know.

i will kick that laptops ass soon. i'll just have to figure out where is its ass.

went for cheers in the early afternoon. and i saw something quite DISPLEASANT. UNAPPEALING. sheesh. she acts cute. ties 2 pony tails. one at the each side. urghhh. and your act cute smile. and act cute clothes. sheesh. and anddd your parents never taught you mannners is it?? didnt you know that IT IS RUDE TO STARE.urghh. you yourself already a parent. urghh. your kids will be was then a disaster. sheesh. add insult to injury. YOUR A BUSYBODY. its none of your business and you have to come poke you big fat ugly nose into others private business. urghhh. so disgusting, disgraceful. TURN OFF

haha. had major badminton feast. like yeahh. went for cheers. so many cute guys. haha! =))). i sound despo. sheesh. i think brian koh is quite cute. QUITE. haha! i like his shirt. so. ORANGE. haha. but i cant have it. so yeahh did some art. at suntec. than bought myself a pair of shorts. nice. =)))

had night training. and i tell you. the shoe was damn comfortable.

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/16/2004 11:48:00 PM

but i do.

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

you dont know.

imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.
imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.
imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.
imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.
imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.imissmybaby.

hello. see the top. that's how i feel. sheesh. now that *she's not here. not there not anywhere. i feel so out urghhh. was playing so much badminton, kuinoi sure has a lot of strength. we lobbed till we spoiled the shuttle. the cork in the shuttle came. out. oh wells. =)))))) it was a pro-tech shuttle. we tried to do the same to the yonex 1. BUTBUTTT. it didnt work. =(((((((( hahaha!. yeahh. training was quite slack. i swear i could have died. =(

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/15/2004 05:57:00 PM

but i do.

Sunday, June 13, 2004

you dont know.

got 2nd for the doubles at the bouna vista badminton tournament yesterday, lost to charlene 15-16. quite angry. but what to do? not concentrating and my other crap. then went for the telok blangah competition next. was back to back. was to tried to play my singles. but i think i improved against her. 21-11 the last time we met it was 15-4 so yeahh. haha! well she's quite nice. pearleen played today. she lost. but yeahh. nice try. i love pearleen. she rocks. but she doesnt know it. i want somebody to go to sba tomorrow. haha! cheers is tomorrow. whee~

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/13/2004 09:54:00 PM

but i do.

Friday, June 11, 2004

you dont know.

hello.

had a fun today. bought tong's prezzie. but she left school already.yeahh. before i reached the canteen, i saw this girl called magdaline(sp?) in school. she really reminds me cheryl.. well its a sad story. too bad. i suppose she's forgotten me or something?
yeahh. nothing to say. bye.

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/11/2004 11:52:00 PM

but i do.

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

you dont know.

shit shit.
i am a stupid fuck nut. was talking to my sis that amelia's birthday coming, then the oh-so-smart me forgot all about it.
so here goes.

AMELIA TAN JIA YI!!! JIA YI!! HAPPY(belated)BIRTHDAY. I SO TOTALLY FORGOT
SMILE YOU,LIL JIA YI? righhtt. yeahh i'll get you your present. yeahh. may all your wishes come true k! =)))))))))))))))))))))

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/09/2004 03:52:00 PM

but i do.

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

you dont know.

hi.

its the holidays and seriously. i think i am a pig. eating, playing, sleeping, bad mooding and whole lot of reading for the past 3days? yeahh. its a nice book. mad about a boy by maggie alderson. sheesh. never been so touched by a book before. seriously. like. i really felt very bad for the lady whose husband(hugo) turned out to be gay. then when she actually kind off gotten over it, she found herself to be 12kgs overweight. then she went to this gym called carlton spa and they really dissed her alot. because of some lady called nikki maier. fucked up bitch. cant stand her though it aint real. she's chao snobby and yeahh. like the people you'd really hate for the rest of your life kinda thing. so then when she actually finds love with another man(james) then hugo really makes james feel as if he is not good enough for her and that kinda thing. like jealousy. its like a romance story. yeahh.haha! anyways. had softball today. and quek said we can tell our friends that we did 100 crunches today. cos we really did. infact we did 106 haha! cos of slow reaction and that kinda stff. so shit la.. my ankle hurt my thumb hurt. so i couldnt throw the all properly. and i think i pangseh rachel tan. wanted to go back with herr. i feel more comfortable around her then most of the other people on the team. yeahh. some people are so not my type. yeahh then went jo's house. shitanessca. we played pool and there was this some kind of a charm which made jo actually lose to me this chao loserfied loser. so yeahh. i could have slapped myself or something laa. and louise was so scared to play la. haha! then when we went up. joanne called her mom cos her mom called her first. then her mom told her that they made a mistake and that jo had to leave already they were coming back for her.. they were leaving for australia. the flight was at 8 or something like that. they were going to australia. then liwei is going tomorrow. then liwei said that if she were to meet joanne there in australia. its be damn suay la. (think about it, meeting liwei when you are having a holiday would be worst) so i'd been thinking. i'd think the australians would dread talking to liwei over there. like her broken english.(england) and the very bad spelling error(linken park) and the accents she tries to give. like those them cute kinda voice ahh. and she her chao fake yet disgusting kinda laugh.. sheesh.if i'd see her in any foreign country ith my parents and if they ask me who is shee. then i'll be. i have no idea. probably my friend in my next life or something and yeahhh. hahah! besides i feel kinda lonely right now. i only have th computer. who knows where the handphone went.my body is all tingly inside like when your drunk or something. that kinda feeling and its quite hot. oh yeahh i ate soil durng training. how? haha! my finger nails had black stuff under it so i tried to bite my nails to get rid of it. but in the end i kinda swallowed it. so yeahh. swoon swoon.

kinda pissed off at quek already. i really want to be the pitcher again. i dont like the feeling of being a first base. its a totally different feeling as to playing badminton, for me its like when i play badminton. i somehow know that when i'd made a mistake i can amend it and not really feel to much pressure on me or something, but when it comes to softball its different it like. when i made a mistake. i can amend it, but it feels like i have already failed. its boom! sorry, you made a mistake and now the pressure is all on YOU sadly, i hate to have to go thru that kind off thing. i like people to let me go and do my thing. let me relax. i hate people to tell me what to do. its like. i have no control or something. shucks. -somethinginside-

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/08/2004 06:44:00 PM

but i do.

Sunday, June 06, 2004

you dont know.

i am th loserfied being. yeahh went golfing. totally suckeed. prolly cos i saw derrick and stanley. and yeahh being this really egoistical me. and blahh blahh blahh leon see went to hospital cos of some soil disease yeahh.been there for some 2 weeks. poor guy. but i dont caree. not that i dont care if he is there. but yeahh. and blahh

haha.

got this from friendsterr. whee~

10 Years Ago, I...
1.was veRy chubby..
2. i was 4 years old.
3.CUTE
4.cRy baby
5.chao playful

5 Years Ago, I...
1.i was primary3
2.was so cute.
3.started playing badminton. wheee~
4.started on golf
5.was pretty touchy.

3 Years Ago, I...
1.was primary5
2. i hated badminton
3. i liked golf
4. chao noisy
5. very nerdy

A Year Ago, I...
1. was in sec1
2. went to STC! =))))))))))
3. went head over heels in love with badminton
4. hated MR LEE
5. i hated miss chan pui chan

This Year, I...
1.like miss chan
2. think mr lee is ok
3. played in the south zone tournament. and i nut fuckingly met. *xuyannnn
4. became cuter. =)))))
5. improved my badminton and a lil of my grades

Yesterday, I....
1.was so chao sad after losing to haising
2.bought my nike air force1. =)))))))))
3. Kept thinking of CL
4. missed xuyan
5. began to feel guilty bout the softball thing.

Today, I ....
1.played golf
2.missed xuyan
3.thought i saw CL
4.when to nissan showroom.
5.wished i knew what i was doing.

Tomorrow I will...
1.go to school.(hopefully.)
2.be chao slacky.
3.get slaughtered by miss quekk(quacks)
4.blog hop.
5. look for CL or something.

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/06/2004 06:57:00 PM

but i do.

Saturday, June 05, 2004

you dont know.

hello.

was kinda depressed yesterday. we miraculously lost. to haising. so FUCKED UP. well. probably we weren't their match but yeahh. for me and irina's match. it was possible to win. to make is 2-3 but it ended up 1-3 so yeahh. karen and meiyi beat cheryl LIM and cheryl PANG. gees. was watching that match. cheryl p. made a mistake. the shuttle was well below the net. and she still pushedd. so yeahh. quite. badd la.. she kinda inconsistentt. cheryl.L wasnt too in focus eitherr. those 2 played better in their last matchess. yeahh. we lost. kuinoi had high fever. misa had flu. cheryl.GOH and as well. karen had an RIGHT injured elbow. irina her left wrist i sprained my LEFT ankle and RIGHT thumb(courtesy of katrina) so yeahh. I WANT A FRIENDLY WITH THEMM! I KNOW WE CAN WIN! urghhh. yeahh was kinda depressed after the lost. and cos i couldnt go for the bbq.

iloveyoumoreeveryday.andnothingshouldtakethisloveaway

03 L O V E S CL

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/05/2004 02:15:00 PM

but i do.

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

you dont know.

1) What is your full name? gwendolyn wee

(2) Are you happy with it? yeahh. its not too bad. but i dont like the dolyn part.

(3) Are you named after anyone? cant be.

(5) Your screenname: gwennie

(6) Would you name a child of yours after you? nehh.

(7) Wat wld u name ur children? so easy. xuyan la. thats if i have a child.

(8) If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name be? who knows. haha!.

(9) If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? HAHAHAHA! THATS A GOOD ONE! i dont know. maybe magdalene, jasmine. no particular. reason. -winks.

(10) Are there any mispronounciations/typos that people do with your name? granola,gren. oh what else. i dont know. too many mispronounciation by MR LEE,coachcumactingbusdriver.

(11) Wld u drop ur last name if u became famous? what for?

(12) Your gender: female.

(13) Straight/gay/bi? geees. thats quite straightforward. bi i suppose?

(14) Single? duhh.

(15) What do you want to be when u grow up? whatever that makes money. probably car salesperson.

(16) Your birthdate: 241190

(17) Age: 13 going on 14

(18) Age you act: i am 14. people think i am 16. so yeahh

(Question 19 is missing)

(20) Your height: 166cm

(21) The color of your eyes: how'd i know?!

(22) Happy with it? more or less

(23) The color of your hair: i dyed it!! its black. with 149289734982374 strands of white hair.

(24) Happy with it? after i dyed it, HELL YES!. before, HELL NOO!

(25) Left/right/ambidextrous? right.

(26) Your living arrangement? odd.

(27) Your family: my family is cool.

(28) Have any pets? uh-huh. just lost 3 chickens. uncle steve came to pick them up.

(29) What's your job: full time unrealistic, chauvinistic, optimistic, materialistic, individualistic loser-fied joker. yeahh.

(30) Piercings? maybe i want more.

(31) Tattoos? neh. even before they put the needle into my skin i think i'd peng and die

(32) Obsessions? hahaha. xuyannn.

(33) Addictions? xuyann. i am addicted to buying racquetss.

(Question 34 is missing)

(35) Do you speak another language? nope. though i am chinese. i dont speak chinese.

(36) Have a favorite quote? yesss. every other thing under the sun. whee~

(37) Do you have a webpage? nehh

[DO YOU..]

(38) Smoke? no.

(39) Do drugs? no.

(40) Read the newspaper? yupp

(41) Pray? i do it on school days. yeahh when i go to school, and you'd go, in the name of the father and of the son and of the holy spirit. yeahh.

(42) Go to church? nope.

(43) Talk to strangers? hahaha. i do. i just talk thrash at their face.

(44) Sleep with stuffed animals? yes! my purple xuyan hippo. why xuyan? who knows.

(45) Take walks in the rain? i doooooooo.

(46) Talk to people even though you hate them? yeah. haha. i am a hypocrtical person.

[HAVE YOU EVER..]

(47) Liked your voice? no. its so high pitched. like some bloody gay, thats when i scream.

(48) Hurt yourself? what kind of hurt. physical or emotional?

(49) Been out of the country? duh~

(50) Eaten something that made other people sick? HAHAHA! YES! i am fond of doing that.

(51) Had sex? NO!

(52) Been unfaithful? shouldnt be.

(53) Been in love? - too direct. aint it obvious enough?!

(54) Sell drugs? no.

(55) Gone skinny dipping? NOOO!

(56) Had a medical emergency? nope.. am pretty fit. except for the fact that i injured my knee, sprained my ankle and my thumb in 2 weeks. THANKS KATRINA!

(57) Had a surgery? nope

(58) Ran away from home? no.

(59) Played strip poker? ARE YOU INSANE?!

(60) Gotten beaten up? who dares?

(61) Beaten someone up? hahaha!. MY LAME SHITASS CRAPPY THINK HE IS OH-SO-COOL COUSIN.

(62) Been picked on? nehh. i pick on people.

(63) Been on stage? duh~

[CLOTHES and other fashion shit]

(64) Shoe brand? i like mizuno. =))))))))) yeahh anything comfy i suppose.

(65) Brand of clothing? no particular brand. well at least not hose from pasar malam. i go for quality.

(66) Cologne/perfume? boss in motion. its nice. =))

(67) What are you normally wearing to school/work? i love my school's uniform.

(68) How about parties? the norms.

(69) Wear hats? depends.

(70) Judge other people by their clothing? at townnn.

(71) Wear make-up? NO!

(72) Favourite place to shop? hmmm. any place. prolly in town.

(73) Favourite article of clothing? t-shirts.

(74) Are you trendy? not exactly.

(75) Would you rather wear a uniform to school? yeahh. it beats having to let others know what you have in your wardrobe. and you might be wearing one same top at 4 times in one month. so yeahh. uniforms are OK!

[AMIGOS]

(76) Do you have any gay/lesbian friend? thats straight forward. well the school's like that aint my fault.

(77) Who are your best friends? dont have la.

(78) Who's the one person that knows most about u? my parents? my mum!

(79) Your favourite inside joke? haha! the CHERYL(s) thing. but i dont know why those people dont seem to find it that funny as i do. =S

(80) Thing you're picked on most about? hahahaha!! lets not sayy. =)))

(81) Who's your longest known friend??? beatrice ng. we are now that kind off, hi-bye and watcha doing friends.

(82) Newest? hahaha! jamie and karen. the xinmin bouncy doubles. chao cute lor!

(83) Shyest? SHY?!?! they are all LOUDDDD.

(84) Funniest? ME! no laa. MARYANNE. dont forget to carry an umbrella when you are talking to her! =))

(85) Sweetest? geees. i dont know. prolly most of themm.

(86) Closest? natt. ra and that gang. maybe weiqi and karenn.

(87) Weirdest? QIU YAN!! NO DOUBTS ABOUT THAT!! gees. am being mean heree.

(88) Smartest? alot la.. everyone is a smart ass anywayy.

(89) Dirtiest? hehehe.

(90) Friends you miss being close to the most? gees. its alot.

(91) Last person you talked to online? ANNA LEE. she's so irresponsible.

(92) Who do you talk to most online? well. it depends. i think val gann?

(93) Who are you on the phone with most? rarely on the phone. sms, germaine and maria.

(94) Who do you trust most? nat. maria? yeahh.

(95) Who listens to your problems? maria does. nat does

(96) Who do you fight most with? see. i am this outgoing and gentle person. and i dont fight. (HAHAHAHAHA!) yeah right!

(97) Who's the nicest? germaine?

(98) Who's the most outgoing? RAVINDER KAUR KE LI!!!!!!! WHEEE~

(99) Who's the best singer? JOANNE KOH JIA YI!! and MELANIE TJAHAJA!! maryanne too. (HAHAHA!)

(100) Who's on your shit-list? doubt i have anyone there.

(101) Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? no.

(102) Who's your second family? haha! STC BADMINTON!! WHEEE~

(103) Do you always feel understood? guess not.

(104) Who's the loudest friend? MARYANNE SOH XIAO YU AND RAVINDER KAUR KE LI. haha!

(105) Do you trust others easily? depends on who.

(106) Who is the cutest friend? me la. then who? germaine ahh. haha!

(107) Name one person who's arms you feel safe in, alot. haha!

(108) Do your friends know you? why not?

(109) Friend that lives farthest away: presently desiree de souza. haha! in perth. and katrina. she's going to canada and aint coming back. her flight is in 10minutes time!

(110) Do you have a crush on someone? HAHAHAHA! i suppose so. but it who you think it is.

(111) Do they know? maybe.

(112) Who is it? hahaha! she plays badminton!.

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/01/2004 04:54:00 PM

but i do.

you dont know.

yeahh. ok. she came in. what a ninnie. haha! next time dont let her help me. so disastrous. *disapointed face* yeahh so yea.. shall update for maria's sake. since she's the only 1 who comes here to kill my tag board. anyhowss. i am reall sick now. cos of KATRINA RAHARDJA she kicked my thumb and its fucking swollen. its like a bratwurst sausage or something. and its turning red. i look ultra pathetic. not i actually. my finger. haha! so ok.. got back bout an hour ago. had the wee kim wee thing. and i swear i've been having mega watts smilesssss. haha! maybe ultra mega watts. haha! we beat fmss. 3-1, so we went to the winners pool and then in the winner'spool we played anglican today. and of course. we lost. but hell yeahh. am still kinda glad or something yeahhh. we are team (B). and we have a team(a) they played xin ming on saturday(29/5)they lost 3-0 so they went to losers pool and they played hai sing catholic. they lost today it was 3-0? i dont know. i didnt ask. regine's match was chao cool!! haha! the two cheryl(the 2 cheryl thing cracks me up. most of the time,insidejoke)VS kelly and regine. haha! the hair clip cheryl smashed regine's n.....e (go figure) haha! regine still dare to tell lorr. how crappy.yeahhh. it was sick laa. the xin min people are so nicee. haha! i wanted to go over to say hi. but they say hi to me already.. righhtt. that makes them cutee. gwen there is something not right up there! haha!that nicole is chao cutee. wheeee~ like she reminds me of sharmaine oh rui wen. gees. haha! they both have the same strokes. i just wished i could remember how xuyan playedd.=(((((((((( i need cash. gees. i want that phonee. wheee~ the 7200 not fun wann. anyway nothing to sayy now. maybe i'll blog later.

this goes out to pearleen and amanda.
remember the times we had. as a team and as an individual

say goodbye-

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world, I'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll missing your lovin' every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry

Because a true love never dies

your going down,
down, for the world to see
6/01/2004 03:35:00 PM

but i do.